as a new mom one emotion that rules my life is fear. Have you seen that commercial where this group of people are leaving an office building and they are all cringing saying "oh it burns... it's too bright... " and the window washer guy looks at them funny and says "it's just the sun" I feel exactly like that. Completely normal run of the mill thing petrify me these days. Logic is still in there sometimes but really it is weird the things I find myself thinking will hurt Andrew. I am pretty sure I am gonna become a hobbit if this keeps up because leaving the house causes so much anxiety. I know that the worst that will happen is Andrew will cry through dinner and I know I am perfectly capable of changing him and feeding him on the go but I always worry about not meeting his needs or exposing him to all the crud the world has to offer. I sit here in the pediatricians office for his first sick baby appointment and think how ironic it is that the first thing he catches is a sore throat from ME... well I dont know he has one. I mean he can't really tell me that is why he was up all night screaming but I have one so I can only assume it was my kisses that gave him one too... I am not sure what you do for a 7 and a half week old with a sore throat so I sit here waiting for the doctor to tell me that there really isnt anything you can do beside wait it out. And wouldn't you know he hasn't been screaming at all today. When he was awake he pretty mellow, not clamy like he has been, so maybe they will really think I am nuts.
Indeed, I am nuts. He doesn't seem to have my crud but the Dr. does think he may have silent reflux. She prescribed Zantac and doubling the amount of rice in his formula. Problem, she wrote the script for 1 cc twice a day, this is above the manufacturers recommended max, so insurance denied it. The pharmacy called for me and got them to cover it but do I call the MD and ask why she gave him so much? Regardless, I hope this works! Off to suck no some menthol cough drops and debate if I want to go to walmart to get orange juice or go to just go to bed!!
Indeed, I am nuts. He doesn't seem to have my crud but the Dr. does think he may have silent reflux. She prescribed Zantac and doubling the amount of rice in his formula. Problem, she wrote the script for 1 cc twice a day, this is above the manufacturers recommended max, so insurance denied it. The pharmacy called for me and got them to cover it but do I call the MD and ask why she gave him so much? Regardless, I hope this works! Off to suck no some menthol cough drops and debate if I want to go to walmart to get orange juice or go to just go to bed!!
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